The Eve

The Eve of Independence Day is here. For the last couple of weeks, the media has been reporting alot on this. Reflecting back to the good old days. Getting the veterans who actually experienced the memorial moment to recount the experience.

Getting the young generation to share their views of what they hope the country is or will be. What they hope to see..

You start asking yourself questions. You have been living here long enough but has things really changed? I was lucky to spend 3 years in the US of A and I loved it there. No doubt being in the mid west there is such thing as racism but its very mild.

If you have read any of those articles in the papers, you would noticed that alot of people mentioned about Bangsa Malaysia. Have you ever asked yourself whether thats just merely 2 words everyone caught on or is it the reality here?

To me, I believe that what everyone hope it is. But it is not so, at all. How can you claim we are there, when you see so much distinction in how everything is divided? Everything is categorized? Its kinda sad.

One thing i hope for this 48th Independence day is that people will just not merely say these two words but make it reality. Recognize what the situation is right now and make a conscious effort to change or make a difference. Eliminate the need or desire to see difference as a bad thing but strive to make the difference invisible.

If one is to just preach that we are multi-cultural env and so proud of it. I can say that many countries are multi cultural these days... so what would make our country any different? The Tolerance?

Of course, I am just writing based on my feelings with no intention of insulting any party. I am writing to express how I feel being a citizen.. and my hope as a citizen of this place :)

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory

I watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory today!!! Awesome... its a damn good one and I laughed all the way.

I enjoyed it to the max. I would definitely recommend it.

But as usual malaysian crowd dont' quite get some of the jokes... Dweebs....

But was good fun.

Go watch it if you can.

Finally.... but then.....

To perm or not to perm
To cut or not to cut
To color or not to color!?

That was the question that ran thru my mind for the last couple of weeks. Seriously I was trying to make a difficult decision while my fringe or banks as they would say it in the US was bugging the heck out of me coz it was just sticking into my eyes.

Then Today, I decided, its about time - its to do or die case. So I called the hair dresser. Yeah the one which i only pay RM13 for a hair cut. Asked her if there is alot of people there? She said nono good time to come. Asked her over the phone, what type of color do you have ah? She goes, LOTSSSSS come and choose.

Fine, i went there, I was looking for the shade of chestnut rite? In my hurry to find it, i actually couldn't find it. Then I found it.. WAAA WEE.. the color. I then told her... she went.. errr.. becoz the color of your hair is dark I would need to put a color lighter.. Dang it she put copper. And I have to say, I am not quite happy lah.... coz the top looks kinda reddish.... I not ang mo mah.........

Anyways.... next time will go with the convention shade.. Brown............probably a medium brown...

So now i got to live with it for awhile..... For RM65.. i guess it didn't really burn a whole in my pocket unlike my friend who paid RM300 for her color hehehee.
By the way RM65 inclusive of the trim ... :P

Progress....

Its interesting that just last week, I attended a talk on the environment in my office. The talk was basically conducted by CETDEM. Its a non-profit organization based here in the country.

It was interesting how he said eventho' we claim we have progressed but data and stats gathered basically showed that only 2 areas we have progressed in - poverty and the other is 'can't remember already'.Anyhow, transport and such hasn't progressed abit since the time we gain independence. I guess when he spoke about transport he was talking more in the context of public transportation.

As we all have experience, taking public transportation in this country is hillarious. Takes a huge amount of your time esp the waiting period. If you are one who hasn't had the oportunity to experience this, you must be the sort that is pampered like crap. The ones born with a silver spoon or one that is fortunte enough to have a car to drive around.

I travel by public transportation when i was in the local college doing my credit transfer program and when i came back from studying abroad, I travelled everywhere by public transportation. The biggest frustration comes from the waiting period and the uncertainty wehther the bus would come or not.. or wehther the train would break down ( the train or rather the commuter only came into existence after I graduated and came back.)

Always have to plan at least an hour buffer zone. Imagine huh? Bloodee waste of time huh.

I hope that govt will look into this area soon enough before more people leave the country and leave another brain drain - which in fact i think would never be healed.

Interestingly today, I heard in the training I am attending - an indonesian man said this...
I love my country but doesn't mean I love my govt but I still have to obey my govt. :)

Can we be like him looking at the beauty of the country independent of the govt? Takes a lot of conditioning?

I dont' know!

Just Like Heaven

Just Like Heaven is a book which is just read. Its written by a male author named Marc Levy. A frenchman.

I went to Kino one day after work last week and saw the book. But I didn't buy it then. As you know books are kinda expensive here in this country in comparison to other countries. So I had to think it over.

But I went home and just kept thinking about the book... So i decided to get it last tuesday.

Just like Heaven is a great read. Its funny, sad and very touching. I am surprised that this romance story written by a male is actually very enjoyable. The way the describes things and how he puts it into words. Thats awesome. I guess thats what makes a good writer.

I enjoy the book coz it describes the places so clearly that you feel you're in there yourself. Another thing is this book is based mostly around San Francisco - my fav place in the US of A.
Dreaming of falling in love and living in San Fran. Sounds crazy no? coz San Fran has a high population of gay :P All the good looking men will already be taken by men :(

By the way, this book has been made into a movie. I wonder tho' - it definitely must take a good script writer to transform all those beautiful phrases and words into movie.....

What to do, I am a sucker for romance :P
Which I am still yet to find one myself.....

Haze oh Haze

Haze oh Haze,
why don't you leave us be,
your presence is making me suffer
your presence will kill me eventually
from inability to breathe properly.

Haze is such a nuisance. I will go home this weekend.. to a place where the reading for the haze is at the 500+ level. Even with the current haze level in KL, my sensitive nose is already sufferring........

My throat feels horrible too....

Please Haze Leave us Be.

Weird Dream

Last Week I had the weirdest dream.

I dreamt myself being in a church. But funny thing is the pews were very close to the next pew and instead of the wood thing that you use to kneel down instead its like thos pedals you find on stationary bicycle?

thats not the weird part, I saw twins that looked exactly like my sis-in-law. I approached one of them and said.. ehhh you look like my sister in law and she actually said.. yeah sarah.

Whats the msg I wonder!? i haven't had visions about her since the 9th day mass we had for her.

As you know I lost my sis-in-law , sept 8th 2004. Funny she should appear in my dream. Wonder what the msg is....

and visions has been very rare these days with me. Esp with my state of low spirituality.

But I often think of her now and then.. esp when i look into the eyes of her children. We have never been close but I have tried to help her during her time of difficulty fighting the killer disease. For her 2 killer diseases.

I find it hard to talk about her.. It just bring tears to my eyes each time. I wonder if thats normal?

Harry Porter and the Half Blood Prince

I have Finally finished reading that book. This book took me longer than the other Harry Porter books. Why? Probably coz there were too many filler chapters.

Anyways.. the story is so-so. Since there is a major character chopped off in this chap, i wonder how the next book is going to be.

Anyhow I will still buy the next book tho, its gonna be the last one.

Just bought a book yesterday from kino. Hopefully its good.. :)

If the opportunity arises

These couple of weeks, I have been thinking lot. Well yeah I know this is my normal form anyways rite.. some of you might think :P

Seriously tho, if the opportunity ever arises for to go back to university to study. I would definitely go into the field of psychology. Why? That was my initial interest anyways but due to some reason i couldn't pursue it. Its a long story, and I think its high time for me to look forward and not keep hanging on and blaming that situation.

Why Psychology. well... after giving it alot of thought. I felt that its what I am interested in and futhermore, going into that field would give me a better footing if I decide to join those international organization. If i opt not to do that but instead go back into the corporate world, I am able to do that too.... so its huge new world for me.

But my unfortunate monetary state doesn't permit me to pursue this. As I do not and wouldn't have that kind of money to finance myself anytime soon. Age is also catching up.

Hence, I am looking for maybe some study grant, stipen or some sort to finance this. But alas, I do not know that many people out there.

Hence my readers, if you know of any leads.... do let me know.... drop me a line.. Give a hand to this poor soul here.....

I have never been more certain that this field is what I am interested in.

:)

Do you want to know who I am?

Who I am From an Artist impression of me.

This portrait was drawn while I was on vacation at Toronto in year 1995 , 1/2 a year before I graduated. Such a long time ago aye....

Well it was actually an asian street artist. A lady infact. I obviously took off my glasses when she drew this :P

so what do you think?

:)

Full House

No... Am not talking about the Bob Saget - Full House Sitcom.

There is this Korean series showing on TV these days. Full House is basically the house which is by the seaside.. home for this couple who married based on convenience not love.

The house is my ideal sorta house, if you remember me talking about it in one of my previous post. I talked about a house by the seaside

This house is by the seaside with a long stretch of seashore.... big house... glass surroundings.

But I guess this remains a dream !?

Down the Drain.

You know.. i had so many topics to write.. but alas.. when I actually got a chance to login . Everything just disappeared from my mind.

Its blank now....

Sigh.. i wonder why would people even bother to read my blog...

Just some boring crap... :(